Worthiness: No Audition Necessary

Reclaiming the Right to Be Exactly Who You Are

Live Well Live Whole ™ Soul Speaks Sundays Series

No need to audition for the role of worthy.  You already have the part.

There’s something quietly devastating about the way worthiness is withheld in the world we’ve inherited. The roles we’re asked to perform. The hoops we’re told to jump through. The shrinking. The striving. The waiting.

We’re taught early — and taught deeply — that our value must be proven. Earned. Granted by someone else. The job, the degree, the “right” body, the relationship, the house, the bank account, the car, the approval, the right family, the right aesthetic…. It goes on and on.

But what if none of it was ever true?

The Lie That Lingers

There’s a premise — nearly invisible — that lives inside many of us.It whispers:“You are not enough yet. But maybe, if you work hard enough, if you stay quiet enough, if you mold yourself just right... you’ll be chosen.”  This is even more true for women.  The socialization of being chosen for relationship as a badge of honor and validation.  And those not ‘chosen’ but rather excluded because they’re too independent.  Not attractive enough.  Too thin.  Too heavy.  Too tall.  Not curvy enough.  Too curvy.  Not feminine enough.  Not domestic enough.  The variables for exclusion are inexhaustible.

But worthiness is not a prize for performance.It is not a reward for endurance.It is not granted by gatekeepers.

The systems that tell us otherwise — shaped by class, race, capital, gender, and power — are designed to keep us off center, forever aspiring, forever almost-there. It’s a strategy of exhaustion and depletion.

And it works.

Until it doesn’t. Until we awaken from the total slumber that envelops us. We’re all susceptible. 

The following reflection explores themes of spiritual disconnection, group exclusion, and self-worth. Please care for yourself in the ways you need as you explore the scenario below.

A Quiet Departure Toward Self-Honoring

I’m thinking of a friend who once belonged to a spiritual community simply because it was where her parents attended. It was all she knew.  She’d been there since childhood — it was familiar, expected, and woven into her identity. But as she reached adulthood, something shifted.  The people in her family and church community thought it was the education she received that made her different. 

She started noticing the numbness — the way she had to mute her questions to stay comfortable there. The way women were never allowed to lead, only sing, serve, or sit quietly in the pews.

She attempted to have a discussion with her pastor.  He was like a second father.  That conversation went nowhere and left her feeling even more hopeless. Initially, she selected other church communities and attended once a month so as not to upset anyone, namely her parents and pastor.   One day, without anger or drama, she stopped going. She didn’t make announcements or cast blame. She simply began visiting other communities — ones where her full voice could exist. Where she felt she could fully serve and most importantly continue to learn and grow.   She eventually landed in a congregation where she felt she would learn, grow, expand and serve.

She didn’t leave because she thought she was better.She left because she realized she was becoming.  She needed more.  It took courage for her to break the expectations and traditions of others.  She put herself first. 

The Courage to Show Up Anyway

Word Mix Mind Fix Affirmation:“I cultivate confidence with my doing and my courage to show up for myself every day.”

There’s a quiet rebellion in deciding that your presence is already enough.That you don’t have to audition anymore.

Every time you choose to show up — without shrinking, without fixing, without performing — you plant a seed of remembering.And seeds don’t need permission to grow.

Confidence doesn’t always feel like boldness. Sometimes it looks like standing still when your whole body is used to contorting.Sometimes it sounds like a whisper in your chest that says:"Maybe I belong here after all." Or it may say “There is no invitation at the table extended to me here.  I will go over there or stand up within myself and build my own table.”

Or it may say:  “It’s time.  Time to answer the call that has been present for years.  I’ve just been too fearful to respond.” 

I remember a client who once whispered, “I don’t even know what I like — I’ve been shape-shifting for so long. I’ve either been in survival mode or trying to meet everyone else’s need…trying to make everyone else happy.  I have no idea what I need or want.” Over time, they began asking themselves each morning: “What do I want today? What do I need? What seed of joy can I plant today for myself. ”  It was quiet work. No big declarations. They began building a relationship with themselves.  They began learning themselves – their likes and dislikes.  They paid attention to their emotions as indicators and information.  They started pouring into themselves.

If you tend to over-do, over-function, or fix as a way of feeling safe or seen, you’re not alone. These patterns can be hard to notice — and even harder to release — especially when they’ve been rewarded or expected.”

Tracy was known for being a great gift giver.  Her gifts were always classy and thoughtful.  She was invited to many family and friend gatherings because she had a reputation for always bringing the perfect gift..  Something was awakened in her one day when a friend stated in front of their friendship circle “Tracy does everything big” as she was opening the expensive candle and home fragrance set Tracy had gifted her.  The room fell silent.  It felt like a backhanded compliment to Tracy and it felt ladened with judgement and even some envy.  Tracy took note.  In therapy, she examined how she always felt the need to please and to give to others but was most often not treated in kind.  She was often forgotten, gift-less when it came to opportunities to celebrate her.  The last event she was invited,  her mind went to work.  A gift bag.  A gift card.  A bottle of champagne.  Some of their favorite things.  And then she dialed it back.  She thought “me showing up is enough”.  That is what she did.  Her presence was the gift.  A different way of being.  Tracy processed the experience and said “if people cannot accept my generosity, that is their issue, not mine.”  Tracy began practicing reciprocity in her relationships — without the need to over-give or over-function.. 

What the Nervous System Remembers

This need to prove ourselves?It’s not your fault. Some are natural givers.  Some are takers.  Sometimes, however, It’s biology. It’s survival.

When we grow up in environments where love or safety feel conditional, our nervous systems learn  hypervigilance, high attunement, or to hustle and be on high alert for belonging.To earn our right to take up space. Or to shrink to avoid abuse or conflict.

So when we begin to stand in our worth, it can feel unfamiliar — even unsafe.

“When your nervous system has been conditioned to equate safety with shrinking, standing tall can feel like danger.”

Knowing this helps us meet our resistance with compassion, not shame.We’re not broken — we’re remembering.

When the Circle Closes Without You

She had been part of the same mothers’ group since her first child was born.Playdates. Text threads. Birthday parties. They’d shared sleep schedules and snack hacks, laughed through exhaustion, and weathered toddler tantrums together.

Until one day, the energy shifted.The invites stopped. The group chat grew quiet.No one ever said what happened — but she felt it.

Later, she learned that someone had said something about her — a twisted narrative — and rather than ask or clarify, the group aligned behind silence. Some of them likely knew better. But the ease of groupthink, the comfort of belonging, kept them quiet.  The fear of betraying the ring bully element was too much for most of them. 

She grieved hard. The loss stung — not just of the friendships, but of trust.

But she didn’t chase. She didn’t explain herself to be let back in.Instead, she began trusting what her body already knew: any space that requires you to disappear to belong is not a space of worthiness.

She started building new relationships — slowly, deliberately — around shared values, not shared performance. Around mutual regard, not unspoken hierarchy.

And that kind of circle?It doesn’t close when you grow. It expands with you.

In the Live Well Live Whole ™ Affirmation and Meditation Card Deck there’s a mantra, affirmation and meditation that says the following: 

“May I Know Worthiness.”

Read this aloud if you’d like. Let it land.

Worthy. I am worthy.I don’t take up more space than needed — and I don’t shrink.At the core of my being I recognize I have every right to be here and to thrive.It is ok for me to be seen, heard, to create and flourish.I go where I am celebrated.I go where the doors open for me.There are doors that will open.Mantra: I am worthy.

Pause here.Breathe.What rises in you?

An Invitation to Reflect

Try one of these prompts — or let your body answer in its own way:

• Where am I still auditioning for love, approval, or belonging?

• What does worthy feel like in my body?

• What would I do differently today if I didn’t need permission to be enough?

• Where am I playing small?

• Where am I betraying myself?

• What am I not going after because of my lack of confidence?

No One Grants You Permission to Exist

You came here — to this moment, this body, this breath — by divine design, not by accident.You are not in waiting. You are in becoming. Unfolding.  Remembering.

We are all specks of stardust — ordinary and extraordinary at once. No one above. No one below. Each of us holding a piece of the divine spark. Each of  us is worthy by birthright..  We all have an opportunity to contribute and to leave our unique stamp by our contributions into community and planet.  To leave situations, people and the environment better because we were there. 

“There is no other person that grants us permission to exist.Creation brings us forward intentionally to realize our full selves.We are already whole.”

You are not something to be fixed, improved, or finally made worthy through someone else’s eyes.You soul and essence want you to remember.

This is the blueprint of your spirit and your soul.  Your very essence.

A Final Whisper

“I am worthy.There are doors that will open.I am not in waiting — I am becoming.”

Let this be the week you choose to stop auditioning.Let this be the week you remember you were already chosen — by the mere fact of your existence.

Want more ways to embody this?

• Try recording yourself reading the mantra aloud.

• Journal on one prompt before bed.

• Come back to the card meditation whenever you feel yourself shrinking.

You don’t need to be louder. You don’t need to be more.You’re allowed to be exactly who you are — and still take up sacred and intentional space.

Call to Resonance

If this spoke to something in you… let it linger. Let it lead.

What came up for you?Where are you acknowledging and strengthening your sense of worthiness in your daily life?

You are welcome to share your reflection — or to hold it close.Both spaces are welcomed.

If this reflection met you somewhere deep — share it with someone who might need a reminder today: You don’t need to audition. You already belong.

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